Why Do I Act?

Photo credit, Truls Berlin, 2009

For as long as I can remember, acting has been my biggest passion. Being an actor was the first thing I wanted to do in life.

I still remember my first audition for a school play when I was 12 years old. I did not get the part I wanted, which resulted in me crying my eyes out in the toilet. This outburst of emotion ended up landing me the smallest role in the school play. 

Looking back on it now, I cannot explain why it mattered to me so badly. At the time though, being a part of that ensemble felt like a matter of true necessity for me. As if, everything would finally get a meaning.

Since that experience, I have been acting. It helps me to gain an understanding for differences and otherness. It balances me and my emotions. It helps me to care and to dare more.

All the vital character work I am challenged with, enriches my life in one way or another. The joy of adding backbone to a character; disassembling and then reassembling it in my brain and in my heart is incomparable.

There is an inner voice that I have, that keeps telling me that I need to make movies till the end of my life so that I can die happily. 

I know that this voice has a point.. that is why I am trying to do it.

Whatever you do, #behumblefirst