Holy Guacamole! Whaaat?!
On a sunny, sweet April day, I was on my way to the Embassy of Sweden in Den Haag after I figured that my passport would soon expire. An ugly truth that quickly put my finalist badge in danger for an acting gig that would fly me over to Bulgaria.
When my phone rang, I was enjoying the man-made woods of the city as if I did not have another train to catch later that same day. I am a time optimist, you see? One of the very worst kind, actually.
I still have no clue how I can manage to fit several errands in one day with that deadly optimism I have. But well, as some astrologists would put it graciously, I am a true Capricorn, so I somehow rock and roll well on the responsibility ground.
Despite the unknown number, I answered. Thank God I did.
It was a Dutch director, curious about my availability for his upcoming feature. Yes! It did happen. Just like a memory told in an Actors on Actors episode, I got an unexpected call from a director. Here comes a YAY!, right? A memory, I will tell and retell until people get sick of it and me, not.
It turned out he got my number from a production assistant I worked with a while back. How fantastic that attitude, in addition to talent, does pay off! We had a long friendly chat and agreed on a follow-up. Then, long story short, I did not get the part. So, here comes a NAY!.
However, the journey is as precious and valuable as the destination. I think, if you have a good amount of life experiences, you would not help but agree.
This is precisely how I feel about my first Best Actress Nomination at Guara de Ouro Film Festival in Brazil. I have already won as people on the other side of the world has seen my work and transformation. This is exactly why I follow this most struggle-some passion of mine, for the love of moving people, touching strangers’ hearts, and telling stories in this best art form I know of.
Oh, this past month was full of joy for me amidst the unprecedented #COVID19 news from around the world.
How devastating and tough it is to be far from loved ones. How saddening to watch people suffer, recently, especially in some developing countries, in the most brutal 21st century-way.
Yet, I was also home this April, spiritually. At one of my homes, at least. Do you feel me, sister?
What is home for you, actually?
I collaborated with a creative Danish crew for almost three days. We worked intensively while I happily listened to a former neighbour language, which I dearly missed. I was the hero scientist at the corporate film for a Swedish company. Ha! Double-home, all the while acting. 😊
I am now emotionally-charged, humbled, excited and hopeful.
Every morning, I wake up with the birds singing as spring is coming. Don’t you also love green?
Whatever you do, #behumblefirst
Photo Credit: Bas Niemans, Photos Are Bullets in collaboration with Square1Magazine
